I should not be this way

1.29.22

I should not be this way
I should not be this way
but I am
and to say that I should not
is to deny reality
and exile understanding

So
Why am I this way?

Because of desire
Because of uncertainty
Because of focus/fixation
Because I have let my time dry

I am empty because I have not filled myself

Purpose your days
What are you doing wasting them wanting?
Consume the moment